the choice
The song that had me in tears of repentance, acceptance, shame, love, and vulnerbility (thats right- i said it-and its ok to be vulnerable...)
on my road trip home...
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Which Jesus do you follow?
Which Jesus do you serve?
If Ephesians says to imitate Christ
Then why do you look so much like the world?
Cause my Jesus bled and diedHe spent His time with thieves and liars
He loved the poor and accosted the arrogant
So which one do you want to be?
Blessed are the poor in spirit
Or do we pray to be blessed with the wealth of this land
Blessed are they that hunger and thirst for righteousness
Or do we ache for another taste of this world of shifting sand
Cause my Jesus bled and died for my sins
He spent His time with thieves and sluts and liars
He loved the poor and accosted the rich
So which one do you want to be?
Who is this that you follow
This picture of the American dream
If Jesus was here would you walk right by on the other side or fall down and worship at His holy feet
Pretty blue eyes and curly brown hair and a clear complexion
Is how you see Him as He dies for Your sins
But the Word says He was battered and scarredOr did you miss that part
Sometimes I doubt we'd recognize Him
Cause my Jesus bled and died
He spent His time with thieves and the least of these
He loved the poor and accosted the comfortable
So which one do you want to be?
Cause my Jesus would never be accepted in my church
The blood and dirt on His feet would stain the carpet
But He reaches for the hurting and despised the proud
I think He'd prefer Beale St. to the stained glass crowd
And I know that He can hear me if I cry out loud
I want to be like my Jesus!
I want to be like my Jesus!Not a posterchild for American prosperity, but
like my JesusYou see I'm tired of living for success and popularity
I want to be like my Jesus but I'm not sure what that means to be like You Jesus
Cause You said to live like You, love like You but then You died for me
Can I be like You Jesus?
I want to be like my Jesus
-toddagnew-
go.worship.
n'trulyl.i.v.e.
<3
2nd installment
So, here is Chapter 2 of getting to know me: Summer edition
all the things that i appreciate most about summer... (well, at least SOMe of the things ;)
1- having a new car! =D (come on, you knew that one would be on here...) ;-)
2- Being able to see friends from high school and before~ and still have crazy times together!
3- having time to hang out with my cousins
4- I love sunsets
5- Driving with the windows down and wind blowing with great jams on the radio on a beautiful day could probably cure cancer
6- sand beneath my toes makes me smile
7- SLEEPING IN! :D
8- staying up LATE!! (or ‘early’ depending on your perception)
9- Lonnng phone convos are rejuvenating; especially at night when you can lay outside and look at the sky
10- Eating Museli for breakfast @ 4pm (mmm, whos doing that right now? yes, tis me) :)
11- Sending mail~ like actual letters
12- Camp! ...although thats harder this year since i cant be a counselor at all..-but visiting is fab!
13- Baseball = favorite sport! Watching, playing and going to games~ especially when the Tigers (my numero uno team) are #1 in their division!!!
14- Laying out!! -ahh, sooo perfect moments of relaxation
15- watching heaps of chic flicks makes me smile.
16- warm evening breezes
17- RoAdTrIps!!
18- cedar point! -"america's rocken roller coast" haha... i love roller coasters!!
19- Tank Tops! my skin didnt even know what to do when i returned from Aussie and i was exposing it to 'the elements'
20- having a tan tummy= favorite!
21- cold glasses of milk. mmmm
22- late night 'camp'fires and the memorable conversations that they produce
23- DanCinG ~nothing like it.
24- Jammen to all the hits and favorites of ages past-- and enjoying the new summer tunes, too :)
25- Concerts!!! -whos going to see the beach boys in 10 days?!?!?! =D
26- Ice cream is much more acceptable as a daily necessity ;o)
27- Weddings! getting dressed up, socializing-eating, and hopefully more dancing! not to mention how darn 'cute' they always are.
28- hiking (when you can find a place to do it)
29- Taking crazy pictures with friends
30- Having those conversations that linger... filled with the reminiscing of great moments- memories, parties, pranks, boys, trips... *sigh*
Its pretty amazing what lacking dark circles, lounging with ol friends, and having a tan tummy can do for a person's optimism...
<3
Today's Highlights
well... my Grandma said anus. at dinner. Hmm... awkward.
somehow- still a great time, as my cousin and uncle kept trying to get her to say it again (she didnt really know that she had said it, she was trying to pronounce some spice. yet- gt's had by all) :)
The big news...!!!
I got a
141 out of 130 on my math exam!!!!! eek! I cant even believe it. =)
heres the bonus question, try your hand at it....
Shannyn has more than 5 pencils. Her friend, Craig has three times as many pencils as Shannyn. Shannyn gives 5 pencils to Craig and then Craig gives Shannyn three times as many pencils as Shannyn had after the initial exchange. How many pencils does Craig have after both exchanges? (show all work and logic for full credit--only the names were changed, for entertainment value)
-one tip of advice for life, if there are reports of severe thunderstorms, and tornado watches... wear goggles before going for a run- cuz debri and random trees are blowing everywhere. and they will get in your eye. but it sure is gor-ge-ous.
It really got the song "Beautiful One" stuck in my head. (no, i decided not to take my ipod with me... just didnt seem smart-like i might want to have optimal use of all of my senses-- and there was enough noise/ music coming from nature and the wind through, well- everything)
-getting something of a life invitation...hmmm, still not sure of the words to reply to that one...
-ending the evening with a movie in a candle filled room cuddled with my sister and mum.
...and now my sister is gone, and i think i bombed todays math quiz... hmm... "another day another destiny, this never ending road to calvary" -Les Mis always appropriate
hope youre having smiles!
<3
n' I'll hold onto You
So much has been going on lately. (mostly inside my head- but, ya know...atleast that's working) ;)
~Had an all-nighter with my cousin on friday--such fun! It's been awhile since we've had time to hangout and really chat- so it was good to be able to get back into her life-- and laugh! and around 3 in the morning we decided to watch marykate and ashley's "our lips our sealed" -they're sydney, AU movie. *sigh* it was like watching memories. hearing people say 'give it a go' and 'good on ya mate!' and watching them walking round and watching the surfers on Manly beach.... just bringing back so many memories... my favorite was when they were learning 'aussie lingo' and i understood everything! haha..sweet :) and the vegemite scene took me back to those moments at camp during out 'toast wars' -lol..yesss.
~Went for a run last night- which has become a phenominal time in my daily life-- this time i decided my puppy might like to join. which she did. for about the first 7 minutes, before realizing how out of shape she is -haha, that was funny. So i dropped her back at home and kept going. I use to never like running when it was hott~ but it feels so perfect in the evening; watching the changing colors over everything, listening to my favorite playlist; avoiding sprinklers; getting sweaty, feeling the exhaustion grow--its so revitalizing! a time when my mind is forced to finally focus on a single thought, instead of the normal zillion that have been plagueing it as of late.
~I'm also reading 'Captivating'... proving to be a struggle of personal challenges and forcing me to encounter many recognitions I've been much more obliged to avoid.
despite the hardships within admitting- there have been unmistakable supports of encouragement, too~~ the catch of the day: Isa. 62:1-5 -they added a bit of emphasis, but the passage is breathtaking, kinda like a good hug. that is what the reassurance of God's word- His promises- are to me. and i am so thankful for them...
~Recently, I've also gotten back into a bit of my ol' favorite tunes from the 90's. Songs of choice being: One headlight-Wallflowers; Iris& Baby's blackbaloon- Goo-GooDolls; Some choice Alanis Morissette songs... ;) as well as a variety of others. Oh! as well as the new song by Snow Patrol-'chasing cars'
randomness, yes... but it is true life that is lived in the details.
<3 jus' a fallen Eve :)
oh no i didn't!
LOL!!! i just watched the funnnnniest episode of South Park- EVAH!!
(episode synopsis:the boys get the newest game machine--n their playing time is interrupted by a talking towel who is somehow part of a government conspiracy against a private corperation (who turns out to be aliens or something)--> soo good!..somehow...)
"Where's Cartman?" "He's punishing our toilet"
"Thats it!" "You remembered the code?!" "Noo..its the tone to 'Funky Town'!"
"I dont care- dont care- dont care"
"We dont ever have to go outside again!"
"Its time to go to school" "Can't, Kenny's got cancer"
Towlie: (smoked as high as a towel can be) "Dont..4get to bring a towel" Cartman: "jeesh towlie, youre the worst character ever"
hahaha.... i was actually laughing heartily outloud.... recieving nothing but concerned looks from my doggy...
gt's
=)
hmm...
So i got this result in a quiz...
| You Are Ned Flanders |
A good neighbor and a devout Christian, you are a community leader.
And you are called to make the world a better place, especially for left handed people.
You will be remembered for: your goofy expressions - "hi-dilly, ho-dilly!"
Your life philosophy: "I've done everything the Bible says - even the stuff that contradicts the other stuff!" |
and i'm thinking its appropriateness is a lil ,umm, scary... (ya know.. if you change "hi-dilly, ho-dilly" for "oh man!" or "remember that time"....)
;o)
<3
not. here.
there comes a point when you can no longer fall
you havent hit the ground thats supposedly below yet--but your head just keeps spinning
ideas and relizations are relentless
...you see the mirror
worthlessness surrounds you
driving for moments that seem longer and inmovable
hands glued to the edge of the wheel- arms locked
eyes quivering
i dont cry on the outside.... anymore.
what is all that really for?
r u being sincere
whos being used here?
do i really have the power to hurt someone-- do they realize how hurt i already am
running and stalling
wanting and longing...
why do you wait for me? your patience is unexpected
--is it all for selfishness?! do you even really know me?
why do you mention a future...'our' fut-...
it wasnt even whole to start with
im tired of wondering-
is this really as beautiful as it could be?
..or just a beautiful disaster ...like the rest...
r you going to be satisfied in the morning?
if only to just truly be captivating
i want so badly to just run away
am i using you?
i need familiarity
what the heck just happened?
if i just breathe...
who am i when everyone sees something so different?
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
whati thought i understood has now joined the heap of confusion
..of the unknown dominating my life
Gotta pick myself up
they're either going to judge me- or never understand the strain
where do I even start
Cuz what im realizing is...now: I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
n vulnerbility shows, yes -im heavily broken
...and i dont know what to say
bring.it.on.!!
best moments occur during phone convos w/ Aussies =) !!!!!!!! yep, me = still smiling =)
This 'cheeky's cheeks are sore! me= luven ya'll BiG!! (except you mr Commercial~ you gained too many strikes-- umm, my sister!; low-blow mocking -what did you say his age was again??...oh, yeah...!!! >:(
-it might be a safe thing 4 you to NOT be around in 6 months mister....)
..N' NOW- the competiton is on; who is better to have a phone convo with:
Sydney-ians or Melbourne-ites???
- let the games begin... ;)
<3
ps~ melbourne's already winning, cuz "theyve" called here... ;)
Kat n' her new Red Car
So here is the story of my new car... (the shortened- happy version; the "once upon a time..." story)
Once upon a time on July 7th 2006 a young lady bought a gorgeous new car (slash, new/ used car)
And she was very happy about this experience! Much rejoicing and celebrating erupted!
The first drive on a fast New Jersey Highway seemed like the perfect picture opportunity! So her beautiful sister and her began to catalog their journey...
But in the process of all of tehir marvelous picture taking- they didn't see the 2392466329 vehicle pile-up that lay waiting just in front of them!!!
The fair young maiden (or cheeky American lass as some have deemed...) didn't know what to do!! She was trapped in a dangerous situation!
but what happened next??!?!??
Well you see, she just then remembered that she was a true detroit gurl- straight from the Motor cIty! and far too smart and more than capable a driver for such circumstances. With renewed confidence, she carried on...
Only to then remember how much debt she was now in!!!!!
Luckily, her sister WAS there... as she comforted the frazzeled young chook with this simple reminder~ "No worries, mate!"
And so they drove along.... HAPPILY EVER AFTER! =)
3s company~ but 4s a PaRtY
Chicago... otherwise known as Chi-town.
Arrived here Monday evening after a nice 50 minute delay while our plane sat on a runway for no known reasons (perhaps the pilot was attempting to sober up before flight??) Yet upon arrival~ the great times began!! From risking of lives (as one friend sprinted up the down escelator to meet me in mid-descent) to laughing so hard water definetly guisered out of my mouth.
It is a reunion with my closest gal pals from uni. Yep, my sisters from another mother. Upon arrival at this house (which is much more like a mansion- complete with an intercom system throughout the house, 5 full baths, n so much more i cant even explain -like every member of the family has their own computer, including the 7 yr old...) One of our posse is staying with this family while she is doing her internship in the city; not.too.shabby. and the family is gone on a vacation (again) and another one of 'us' just got a job about 2hrs away, so it was a perfect excuse for a re-uniting! We made an amazing greek type salad, slushy type drinks, some garlic bread, prepared the exceptional patio, and had a 'family' dinner on the veranda. ah-mazing times. cant believe how natural it is to be together (although, as the time has grown- i have been able to spot several areas where i can now see a change in myself, and slight alterations in our friendship) yet the 'picking up where we left off' (which i think that cliche has never been stated accurately; wouldnt it be more appropraite to say "picking up where we let down"?...) regardless, it was 4 sure no problem~~ although they did have several questions for me bout the trip that I just hadnt gotten form ya know, my mom... or brother... like, those type of questions only your best gurls can ask ;)
We had a long night~ enjoying both the hot tub and amazing pool, brownie sundaes (mmmmmm) and the perfect way to end any gurl night? nope..not with a chic flick! -rather... Disney's High School Musical! lol...so fun (funny perhaps.. like that we actually watched it, and found enjoyment in doing so..)
And after bout 3.5 hrs of sleep~ i awoke to music being played through the intercom system servicing as my alarm... we were out the door shortly after to roadtrip round to begin the search of apartments. Surprising how sleeping in an enormous master bedroom- in the unbelievable master bed can make you feel rather rested regardless :)
(Our group~ although at the last minute Justyn had to cancel... "oh-man"--- Ash-wee, Court-knee, me, and Sarah-bear-ah)
I wish I had pictures from this weekend to show you... or the space to expound upon our many adventures... jus know that it has been sooo great to be around peers again, and to truly laugh...
(Grad day... one of those times when you know
nothing will
ever be the same again...)
<3
