not. here.
there comes a point when you can no longer fallyou havent hit the ground thats supposedly below yet--but your head just keeps spinning
ideas and relizations are relentless
...you see the mirror
worthlessness surrounds you
driving for moments that seem longer and inmovable
hands glued to the edge of the wheel- arms locked
eyes quivering
i dont cry on the outside.... anymore.
what is all that really for?
r u being sincere
whos being used here?
do i really have the power to hurt someone-- do they realize how hurt i already am
running and stalling
wanting and longing...
why do you wait for me? your patience is unexpected
--is it all for selfishness?! do you even really know me?
why do you mention a future...'our' fut-...
it wasnt even whole to start with
im tired of wondering-
is this really as beautiful as it could be?
..or just a beautiful disaster ...like the rest...
r you going to be satisfied in the morning?
if only to just truly be captivating
i want so badly to just run away
am i using you?
i need familiarity
what the heck just happened?
if i just breathe...
who am i when everyone sees something so different?
Tell me what do you do, when it all falls apart
whati thought i understood has now joined the heap of confusion
..of the unknown dominating my life
Gotta pick myself up
they're either going to judge me- or never understand the strain
where do I even start
Cuz what im realizing is...now: I can't turn to you when it all falls apart
n vulnerbility shows, yes -im heavily broken
...and i dont know what to say
posted by Kat @ 1:12 AM
3 Comments:
I think that we should have a loooong chat on the phone, which is way doable now that I have topped up your phone card!
Talk to you Wednesday
I'm calling you too.
Hang on, no I'm not, I don't have your no. or a phone card...
...but feel the love from this end too!
JT
And prayers from this end heading your way...
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