Saturday, February 10, 2007

Get BacK

This has been such an amazing year~~ ...already! Which basically makes me a bit nervous of how the rest will go- but ultimately, anxious n xcited for the unknown 2 play out!

There have been so many visitors (friends and family) in town since new years that a girl has found time to breathe occasionally difficult~~ and couldnt be loving it more!! :-)

And, while the adventures have never been long, they have been crazy/fulfilling/enjoyable/testing/and welcomed.
From Skydiving the first week (profile pic) to extreme nights at karaoke clubs-- to days spent in the parks-- to late nights laughing, watching movies, and enjoying bonfires with friends... Seeing my sister turn 18, being there for my girls when they get their heart broken, having friends take me out when my heart gets dropped-- to shopping therapy, sunny days-- cool evenings, lots of reading~~ and releasing of hindrances that can go untouched 4 years.
*sigh*

no, it hasn't all been smooth~~ but it has all been real~ fully experienced. i've fought for my job-- i've had other people fight with me for my job~~ i've had people throw me down with disrespect and fight against me with backstabbing lies.

i have fallen. i have gotten back up. i have kept on dancing.
(none of which i couldve done on my own...)

honestly... I have felt like ME again. for the first time in over 15 months~ and ... it has been fantastic. I dont know all of the reasons why I have finally re-gathered~ or a time to come when all of the hurt will be healed--> but i DO know enough about my God, my ambition, my confidence foundation, my desires- 2 Continue. 2Smile. 2share love. 2 live with arms wide open... rejoice through whatever~ whatever fills the pages that are currently unwritten.

and a lot of that i owe to a lot of you. 4 sharing your life with me. 4 being real, 4 being there... out there...

theres no way to end this in a sweep~~ so alas- its good 2 be back.
<3